Day 21 The Need For Speed

In just a couple of days, because of walking and calorie counting, I was able to shed several pounds. Exercise is the key. However, I also have to deal with the food problem. Still struggling with it today...was good all day and then stepped right back into the social problem of parties and eating out. My eating at the restaurant was not too bad but I always struggle with portions. I do not want to eat the whole meal because I know I will be too full. However, if I don't box it and take it home, I know I am throwing money (and good food) away. However, if I take it home, I feel obligated to eat it fairly soon and I have no idea what the calorie content is for any random restaurant item such as two slices of gourmet pizza or a leftover salad and a slice of bread. I want to be able to count calories as much as I can because that is where I find I have the most control and it is where I feel the most emotionally safe. When am just "out there" with food choices and unknown calorie content, I feel nervous and borderline out of control. When I get nervous, I feel stress. When I get stressed, I just want to hide...crawl back in to bed...with something to eat...no exercise...hide...and feel terrible. So...what to do...tomorrow is a new day, thank God. Give me the grace to feel safe.