I am sitting here having eaten a frozen pizza, 20 rice cake chips, 5 pieces of leftover Easter candy and I will probably have some wine later. However, lest one think I have thrown all good intentions overboard...I have not. I have walked 30 minutes. I am about to walk 30 more. I have worked all day. I have completely cleaned out my closet and taken a lot of "no longer fits" fat winter clothing to the Volunteers of America. I lugged some things upstairs to the attic. I thought about the fact that my birthday is in four days and I felt happy, excited and hopeful. The extra calories have energized me. I feel at peace emotionally.
This is huge success for me. In past days, if I had eaten the above snacks/foods...I would have crawled into my head emotionally. Then I would have crawled into my bed and done... NOTHING! I would have continued to eat and eat and eat until I felt sick. There would have been no exercise, no closet cleaning, no positive mood...despair and gross feelings from a bloated gut, gas and digestive trouble, depression, discouragment and anger. Now I feel that I can cut myself some slack...no excuses to eat like this every day...but the reaction to the extra food is what is key. I know I can have days when I overeat and it does not mean that everything has to shut down. I no longer have to live an "all or nothing" life. I can get up tomorrow and start over. It can be done. I am so happy with today's success. And my closet is looking really good...lots more room!
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