Day 10 Plugging On And Enjoying The Positive

A beautiful Saturday morning. It is cold but sunny. I had a bit of a food relapse last night but I continue to hang in there with a 32 pound loss. I must confess all that I ate. I know why I did it. The weather changed drastically. I spent the whole day wrapped up in jeans and a sweater and I was still freezing. I was very tired after a long work week. Suffered through all the usual drama at work. Ran a lot of errands last night. Was uncertain about a certain blooming relationship. Sister came over last minute and colored my hair. Social interaction makes me want to eat and drink more. Crawled into bed with a guilty conscience and a generally blah feeling, but with the knowledge that these days sometimes happen and if they are few and far between, one can survive it! The scale proved that this morning!

Here is the confession! I started the day out fairly well. I had coffee, juice, toast, cheese, nuts. Lunch was okay...dried fruit and a sandwich. Early afternoon, I began to fade slightly. I had cheese and crackers, peanuts and a big cup of coffee. Later I had a protein bar. So far, so good. But by that time emotionally, my heart was no longer inspired. I got home and that was the end...2 pieces of marzipan, 1 glass of wine, 20 rice cake chips, nuts, cheese, bread, 2 pieces of chocolate, a huge piece of pizza (I shudder to think...) and 2 more glasses of wine...okay. That was not the worst binge I have ever done, believe me so I know I am getting better. I have confessed it...I am very sure that will not happen again for a long time. I do not like the way I feel when I do that. I sense myself stepping two toes over the line into discouragement and depression...not worth it. Back on track today...just completed a brisk walk and ate strawberries and yogurt! Good.