Day 18 The Face In The Mirror

Today was a very fattening day due to birthday celebrations. But I did reach the end. It is 11:05pm and I just finished eating a large and very delicious piece of chocolate/raspberry birthday cake. I really enjoyed all the food today and I am going to list some of the things so I can look at it in black and white...quiche, maple bacon, a blueberry muffin, coffee with cream...a fabulous brunch at a favorite restaurant...Italian meatballs, Swedish meatballs, lasagna, crab cakes, cherry blintzes, strawberries with cream and cream puffs, salad with lots of bleu cheese dressing...and on and on...it was all good. I looked carefully at my face in the mirror this evening and I did not like what I saw...in fact, I got a little bit nervous. My skin looks not quite as smooth due to what I have been eating. I have not been drinking enough water and that makes my skin look more worn. I have put on a couple of pounds and I can see it in a rounder face...a little bit more of a chin...a broader look and feel...and I do not like it. I start over tomorrow because I feel as if I have lost my edge, my power, my enjoyment, my energy and my joy. Don't get me wrong...I am balanced but I can so easily lose it. I have to drink tons of water. I have to count calories. I have to exercise. The solution is within my grasp...Happy Birthday to me and let the new year commence!