Day 30 The Month Winds Gently Down...

Last day of June. A family reunion over the next few days, fast approaching. I look forward to being with my family. Family is also that dangerous place where "everyone knows your name"...and everything else about you...strengths, weaknesses and struggles...and failures. Family often feels entitled to bring up those failings and sore points...the cost of doing business with people who really know you and love you just the same. Family can also be way out of line, treading over sacred boundaries...places where angels step lightly and blundering humans do just the opposite...blundering and harming. In the past, large family get togethers have caused weird combinations in my spirit of pain, joy, grief, laughter, insecurity and safety...often leading to bouts of overeating (or coping, as I have called it). Not this year. I have come a long way emotionally and spiritually in the last few months...thank God. With grace, I will do more than cope...I shall triumph...loving and choosing to overlook the "mistakes"...picking my food carefully, knowing full well that I can't pick my family...growing up, slimming down, opening my heart and shutting my mouth.