Day 3 Getting Over The Hump

Feeling better and better...lots of protein helps. The initial joy of that heavy carbohydrate going down my gullet is compromised by the awful way I feel afterwards. The initial boredom of that healing protein going down my gullet is rewarded afterwards by increased energy and a sense of well being. ...must keep reminding myself...crawling into bed after a heavy meal and going to sleep is a beautiful thing...if one is a bear. I am human and therefore hibernation is not an option...I only grab snatches of it as I go along...thought about that while I was on the treadmill yesterday evening...the hibernation temptation disappears once the warmer weather sets in...am pondering the freedom of Spring, when I can leave work, head home and immediately stride out into the fresh mud-air of nature and go for an extended walk...I can walk for 90 minutes or more outside...20 minutes on the treadmill seem an eternity at times...load up the Ipod and don't think...just move, don't think...

Just realized that eating a lot of protein seems to have made my skin look healthier and more vibrant. I feel like I have better color. One bad moment today...a student (who does not know me well) greeted me by name in the hallway...unfortunately, it was not my name...rather the name of another person in the building who is significantly overweight and in my opinion, unattractive...there was a lurch in my spirit...a lurch, no doubt due to pride...I have my pride, but that may be why I got here in the first place...hmmm...anyway, I forgave the child because this other person and I are the same height and coloring...and I know in my soul that I am not THAT weight...however, a lurch in the spirit is just that...rather upsetting...

Wednesday evening is when I get groceries at Aldis...if the reader has never visited Aldis, it is a happy and cheap grocery store full of candy, chips, cheese, frozen foods, etc. I adore this store because it is cheap and I realized this evening (as I was stalled in the chip and chocolate aisle) that I will never be a purist when it comes to food...I love processed junk food too much...I have to be able to count those calories and keep moving...perhaps sometime in my life I will morph into a Vegan...maybe...but another balanced day has come and gone...rest and think about what I am becoming...