Day 11 The Hormone 2-Step And A Whole Mess of Calories

Day 11...learned some interesting things yesterday. No matter how slowly I chewed...the hormone monster was working double duty against me. I confess that I had a bit of an eating binge last night. I knew it was coming and I decided that the only thing I still had control over was figuring out how much I was actually eating. I slowed down enough to add up the calories. Here is the confession...I consumed (by 10 pm) 3,620 calories...1170 of those calories were pure sugar. Just knowing the amount, made me stop. Seeing that number written in ink on a clean sheet of paper, cleared my head. I know that there are 3,500 calories in one pound. Since I ran around yesterday like a nut and was dealing with a lot of mental stress, I know I did not gain a pound. However, I will not be getting on the scale for a few days until my body can shake things loose.

This morning, around 2 am (my female system kicked into gear) and all desires for over eating of any kind disappeared. (I no longer craved cream-filled raspberry anything...). Any woman reading that last sentence will know exactly what I am talking about. Those cravings are literally controlled by an on/off switch, which seems beyond my reach. Hormones are profoundly weird things. They make it particularly hard for women who are working on their weight. I have come to the conclusion that there is about a 10 day window where I need extra support to do what I should do. I also have to stop thinking to a certain extent, and have to start doing. I can't get on the scale. I have to keep exercising. I have to keep counting calories and I have to keep the faith. My body is just asking for a 10 day break once a month where I fulfill my part of the contract and the body does its own little 2-step. At the end...we can do a little jig together on the scale...but there does seem to be this required hiatus. I resign myself. I practice obedience to this and keep going. Give me a solid 24 hours and I shall be back on track...